Mini series: Hairy situations

I'd imagine there are plenty of you struggling with your hair. Welcome to the club! One of the main things I decided to do, after finishing my education, is to focus on this part of me I like to call a few pieces of feathers.

I don't particularly think there is a big problem there. It's more of a noticeable change over the past couple of years. It just feels like it's not where it could or should be, which I'm not even completely sure about. I do wish I had more hair follicles on my scalp, and I do think it was thicker when I was younger so I'm not sure if it's even a possibility to thicken it again. Most likely not. Most likely I'm forever stuck with a shoulder length haircut.

That is why I decided to concentrate on just getting it healthy, at least. Last night I used coconut milk oil mask that I myself extracted out of the coconut fruit. I applied it onto my scalp with dry hair, did a small scalp massage to get the circulation going and then also applied it on the rest of my hair. I left it on for the rest of the night using plastic bag that I wrapped around my head, or you can use a shower cap, and just in case I put clean towel over my pillow. If you worry about having oily hair afterwards, as the coconut fruit is quite oily, it is very easy to wash off with a shampoo and a conditioner. I used just random ones and I did shampoo my hair twice since I was told that conditioner does add up some oil that I didn't want to double up.

The results were quite nice! My hair was really soft afterwards and easy to comb trough. I also noticed that my scalp doesn't itch as it usually does after the washing, could be because coconut oil has the capability to get into the follicle and deeply nurture it.

I encourage you to try coconut hair masks if you are dealing with any scalp problem. Let me know your experience!

Mini series: Introducing me

1. I like being awake in the morning just when the sun is rising.

2. If during the day I get an episode of tiredness I will become still and shut up. Usually people think I'm sad.

3. I don't feel comfortable being touched so if I let you hug me for more than 5 sec it means I like you.

4. It should be easy to get me to do something for food.

5. My worst nightmare would be if someone would set me up with a guy. I don't like being pressured into a friendship and it takes me a long time to judge a person to see if I can let them into my bubble.

6. I'm fascinated with bubbles and balloons.

7. I have a fear of being judged as a young woman.

8. I despise making a phone call.It literally takes me half an hour to get the courage to call someone.

9. I very easily pick up someones bad energy.

10. I can be very blunt which usually causes awkward situations or it makes me sound rude.

Mini series: Thanks for the tip

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Here's a thought. I f****d up.

Have you ever had a feeling like you're standing in front of a freaking concrete wall and have no possible way of breaking trough it? Because that's how I feel right now. I found myself in such a difficult situation that I just see no way out of it. And it's literally tearing me up.

It is very difficult for me to write this right now, as my head is just all over the place and my body is constantly in a panic mode. Last year was the year I graduated high school. And that summer was about to determine my future as I was choosing what college should I go to. Being very artistic person I knew it has to be something with media involved. But also as a person that's against classical education I was seriously considering taking a gap year just to have time to see my possibilities and where I stand and what would be the best thing to do.

Well I didn't take a year off. Having people around me that are all about what is written on a piece of paper and nothing about winging it, it was impossible to have them understand what was going on in my head. I felt pressured to enrol somewhere by people I know, by society, by the fact that if you take a gap year you fall out of the system and it's harder to enrol later on...and I cracked under it. So here I am, compromising five year college with a sped up diploma course that I have close to zero chance of passing.

As I wrote before, I always wanted to do something media, TV, theatre, music related. And yes I still have big dreams of becoming an artist even though I'm a bit late. I never ever feel comfortable talking to others about my dreams as not a lot of people have the understanding about the entertainment industry. I realise that what you're called on a paper means nothing here. What matters is how much talent you have, the potential, the passion and hard work you put in getting better each day. If it was up to me I would have ditched the stereotypical way of growing up a long time ago. I'm no better now than how I was 5 years ago and that time could have been invested into learning maybe how to play an instrument or some other skill. But that's just the ideal situation.

The most important thing for me is to be happy. My whole life I've spent trying to grow up into a successful, young, independent woman. Having an older sister honestly determined the person I am now. Every bit of me is based off of her. She is probably the only thing I've spent my time observing every day, seven days a week and having her hit the puberty first helped me realise what I should and should not do. The only thing I hoped for, in the long run, was that I would make everyone around me proud of who I am and what I'm accomplishing. But I failed.

Yes, my goals are big. No they are not impossible to achieve. Just to make clear...I'm in no way saying I want to be an actress or a singer or something drastic like that. But yes I do want to travel the world. I do want to make an impact on other peoples lives. And I will never be able to do that if I agree on having an eight hour job in the same place for who knows how long. I am very much aware of others not being happy with my decisions and the way I think. I know that people badmouth me, I'm not dumb. But I'm so tired of making everyone around me happy and not taking care of my well being. I'm not happy. I'm miserable and conflicted between chasing the opportunities or chasing a tittle. If only I could break this wall on time so I'm able to connect myself with my life.

Vacationing in Pasman, Croatia

Greetings to you all! Hope you're all doing well. Sure there's no overheating..passing out..all that typical summer things. It has been quite hot to be honest so I'm really loving this rainy week of crazy storms and beautiful clouds. Feels like my brain is finally working again!

The vacation season is obviously in full swing. Some of you may or may not have been able to travel, or at least go to a pool. If not, I apologise for this torture post filled with nice-view pictures.

Luckily I got two weeks off from my studies. The heat is unbearable at this time of the year and I can't wait to get my diploma. I mean, who even is able to think during this heat?! The last two weeks have been busy, busy. I got an okay result on my exam, happily came back home, filled my tummy with a lot of home cooked food, went to see my friend ~ who I'm jealous off because she has an apartment approximately 70 m from the beach ~ in Pašman, Croatia where we had a week of blast. Sea, food, ice cream and crime shows! Can't ask for a better getaway.

I also came to realisation of the reason why I am so bored every summer. It's just that possibly every friend of mine has a house or an apartment in the walking distance to the beach while I'm stuck 150 km or something in the grey, asphalt covered town, alone and dyeing of boredom. And as an adult there is only so much time you can manage to be with your family. I love them to death, but sometimes it's just too much to take.

I am just happy there are some good souls ready to have me as their guest. I'm so so grateful to have them as my friends since friends and my name together in one sentence doesn't work ~ socially awkward human here what else to say. I loved every minute spent there mostly eating and avoiding having pictures of me taken. Sorry human friend! You were very nice to me and fed me good! =P