A bundle of ramble

It's a bit of a struggle, this life. Don't worry, I'll try not to make this post as some pitiful story about  my mood and feelings lately. I just wanted to give you an update on what's been going on and why I haven't written anything for a long time.

By this time I think it has became quite obvious that I'm very weak when it comes to giving into my laziness. It's bad,and it's even worse when I'm not feeling a 100%. And the reason behind that is the fact that I'm currently fighting for my place in this world, not seeing any progress. I get strongly affected by the progress I make. It makes me even more inspired. But, it works in the opposite way also...and I just can't help but feel bummed.

Somehow, I always have this itch to write...keep writing, keep expressing myself, keep creating. But despite the fact I absolutely love making new blog posts, I can't get myself to write about anything I usually write about. I don't want to change the main "theme" of my blog with posts like this one so I usually contemplate whether to write a crappy beauty/fashion/life blog post or absolutely nothing. But it has been too long so I felt as if I owe an explanation.

One thing no one knows about me is that I have periods of being really optimistic, energetic, inspired and then another day comes along with the pessimistic period that lasts for a while. And it simply snaps between those two. But I'm a person that lives in a moment so it's not noticeable to others. Only I feel it. And it makes me really frustrated because I feel like I fail myself when I don't write a post, or work on a song, or just go out on a sunny day just because I, at that moment, don't see the point.

This blog means a lot to me. For many different reasons. I love to write about things and share my opinion. And to get a response from some of the readers is even better. So, to keep up with regular updating I decided to write posts in advance and make a use of that "I'm so happy, let's go do something" time. That way there is no way I miss a date to post. I'm making it an obligation to get myself back on track. Go trough this crappy phase and learn to live and be happy.

P.S. Sorry for all the pessimism but I just feel like s**t. ;) Byyy

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